I always knew I was destined to suffer through an unfathomable amount of struggle and pain. Despite my knowing this, I remain afraid of hurting, feeling, failing–why can’t I overcome this monumental predicament? If I cannot, I fear I will never be able to truly experience life and live up to my potential. Perhaps this is the suffering I must endure in my lifetime; though, I will continue to dream, and work toward making my dreams reality.
This is just one out of a myriad of back-and-forth conversations that I have in my head on a regular basis. I’m in a never-ending battle with myself and my fluctuating positive thoughts and negative emotions, with one side never truly triumphing over the other.
And, so, the battle goes on…