Once everything was over between us, I realized I wasn’t the same person that you fell for. Instead, I tried to become the person I thought you wanted me to be and lost myself in the process. The changes I made to my being began at the core–my heart. I wanted to heal you, no, I needed to heal you… Maybe it was just to prove to myself that if I could heal your broken heart, I could heal mine too. Such naive and wishful thinking. Or, perhaps, I loved you so much that I would do anything to be with you. Yes, my darling, I would do anything to be with you then, and I would do anything to be with you now.
I want to see the smile that I fell for once more, with those deep brown beautiful eyes of yours that looked at me as if I was the only person on earth–the only person you would ever love. That’s how deeply you made me feel. It was in those moments that my life seemed to pause and last forever.
Alas, these moments are now nothing other than a distant memory of my fondness for you.
Everything I ever did, it was always just for you.
JCH
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